A broken heart without a bitter spirit

I am broken hearted... in grief, to say the least... i've been like this for almost a month now... wallowing in the sorrow of having to let go of someone i really love...

he was a friend.... a very, very dear friend... but come to think of it, i never really thought that he would become one of the most important people in my life...

i used to see him at school but never really liked him that much... i don't know him and he doesn't know me... and it doesn't realy matter...

i then met him at the church... but it was, well, one of those forgettable instances in one's life... except, i didn't forget... i just well sort of encountered this guy... big deal!

the next significant moment was during a meeting with the outgoing officer of a church group and, well, we were both assigned (we're still questioning our election months after our term... hehe) and we both accepted, grudgingly...

then came all the times we have to be together because of our duties and responsibilities as officers... and well, there are times we do have fun and there are times when we just argue and well, have fun and there are times when we fight... it was a roller-coaster ride but it was well worth because we did accomplished things...

and came the time when i started faling for him.. i didn't mean to... i tried hard not to but i just did... and i fell hard...

i loved him for all the man that he is and all the man he could never be...i love him for his strengths and i love him for all his weaknesses... i love him for all the things he does for me and i love him for all the things he wouldn't do... i love him for all the joys we shared and i love him for all the tears i shed that he never came to know... i love him... i love him and that is all i need to know...

but despite all the love i could give... i just know that he could never give back what i have to offer... and that i would just hurt both of us if i continue to hope for something that is never meant to be...

and though i am brokenhearted right now...

i just know i will keep him forever by my side coz i have learned to let go of what is not mine...

yes i am brokenhearted but not bitter...