just another saturday evening

well... well... well...
who would have thought that i could go blogging on a saturday evening...
i never thought i would...
our place doesn't have the privilege of having pldt...
but that's technology for you...
we now have a wireless broadband server...
and i could blog anytime i want...
hahaha... expect more from me...

not a smile... not even a second glance

i've been trying to forget you...
trying to go on with my life without your presence...
i've been surviving... subsisting...
and i thought that i'm just fine...
until i saw you one day walking into the very room i am in...
i looked at you hoping for mere acknowledgment...
you looked my way but seemed to have never seen me...
my face froze... i was emotionless outside... while the turmoil pounds through my head...
you looked away... without a smile... not even a second glance...
and the sorrow deadened my heart...
i am in stupor.

A broken heart without a bitter spirit

I am broken hearted... in grief, to say the least... i've been like this for almost a month now... wallowing in the sorrow of having to let go of someone i really love...

he was a friend.... a very, very dear friend... but come to think of it, i never really thought that he would become one of the most important people in my life...

i used to see him at school but never really liked him that much... i don't know him and he doesn't know me... and it doesn't realy matter...

i then met him at the church... but it was, well, one of those forgettable instances in one's life... except, i didn't forget... i just well sort of encountered this guy... big deal!

the next significant moment was during a meeting with the outgoing officer of a church group and, well, we were both assigned (we're still questioning our election months after our term... hehe) and we both accepted, grudgingly...

then came all the times we have to be together because of our duties and responsibilities as officers... and well, there are times we do have fun and there are times when we just argue and well, have fun and there are times when we fight... it was a roller-coaster ride but it was well worth because we did accomplished things...

and came the time when i started faling for him.. i didn't mean to... i tried hard not to but i just did... and i fell hard...

i loved him for all the man that he is and all the man he could never be...i love him for his strengths and i love him for all his weaknesses... i love him for all the things he does for me and i love him for all the things he wouldn't do... i love him for all the joys we shared and i love him for all the tears i shed that he never came to know... i love him... i love him and that is all i need to know...

but despite all the love i could give... i just know that he could never give back what i have to offer... and that i would just hurt both of us if i continue to hope for something that is never meant to be...

and though i am brokenhearted right now...

i just know i will keep him forever by my side coz i have learned to let go of what is not mine...

yes i am brokenhearted but not bitter...

AVATAR

wahoo! this is my yahoo avatar...
i would really love to look like her by december!

kitty at heart

i have long been a fan of this cute little kitty with her cutie little teddy bear... i just find her adorable... so much like me...

It's a SUBIC thing...

Ha! Just look at our faces...
We are directly facing the morning sun and we're trying hard to smile...
Well, it's a Subic Thing...







Inside a fake cave... or should I say... in the mouth of a FAKE cave?
Someone is PREGNANT... you would just have to guess who...

love is a hilarious thing

i just don't get it...
love... i mean...
it always gets me first...

funny, how i always seem to fall for Mr. WRONG...
maybe, it's because there are too many Mr. WRONGs around...
though i'm still hoping to get things right...

love has this weird sense of humor...
makes me wanna laugh...
while tears stream down my face...

love is a hilarious thing...
you just won't get it right if you try so hard...
just have to let things be...
go with the flow...
don't think much...

best of all...
just laugh, honey...
just laugh out loud...
just laugh even though you're hurting so much...
laugh, my dear, just laugh...

things are gonna fall into place...
and your laughter may soon fill this space...

laugh even with an aching heart...
coz love is a hilarious thing...

And Life Goes on...

A few years back, I stood in front of the PBCF congregation to give my testimony, it was Young Adults' Sunday. All eyes were on me (well, I guess they are supposed to look at me) and I have never felt so calm in front of a big audience.

I started by saying I am sorry because I have a very very hoarse voice because I was sick at that very moment. I saw the amusement in Pastor Ogie's eyes but I just shrugged it off knowing he understood where I stood at that time - my family life was in turmoil.

I introduced myself with the following line...

"I am Yeng Tuico, 22 years old, a Young Adult..."

and what follows after is paraphrased in italics from here on...

"I am a Chemical Engineer, a graduate of UP Diliman. God first showed me His power and love when He caught up with me during my freshman year in college. That was when three Engineering students from Campus Crusade for Christ shared with me the Four Spiritual Laws and that is when I received Jesus as Saviour and Lord. As to how God turned my class schedule upside down just so I can be nurtured in the faith is just another story."

I paused for a while only to realize that my nervousness has left me...

"I thank God for by His grace I was able to survive UP and graduate, and by God's grace was able to pass the Licensure exams and still by God's grace that I was able to find a good job. In my life as a Christian, there is one thing that God has taught me.. That is... through all my triumphs, through all my disappointments, through all my joys, and through all my pains..."

At this point in time, I stopped to suppress the rising sorrow in my heart... I know I'm gonna cry... and then, I saw Tita Lizette dab her tears dry... a comforting sight for me... I'm not the only one who knows what I meant when I said PAINS...

"...God is always, always, in Control! And so I thank my God for letting me share in His ministry at the Sunday School... and I thank my God that even in sicknes, I can give Him back all the glory and Honor..."

This is the part where my mom and my brother enters the sanctuary sans my father...

"Thank You..."

My mother sat and clapped with the congregation, not really knowing what it is she's applauding...

That was how it was...

...and Life goes on for me...

... as God continues to teach me how it is to live in His love.

TUICO COUSINS

This is the closest bunch of girls Nagcarlan, Laguna will ever see...

we're bossom buddies... we're sisters...

mess with one and you'll have to deal with the rest of us...

The complete set of TUICO cousins...

with the TUICO matriarch - BELEN S. TUICO

yeng, harley, audrey tuico

anne, nina, yna tuico-torres

eion tuico-llorente

welcome to my twisted reality

well oh well...
i finally found a site were i can post my thoughts...
well, i do have friendster pero...
i would like to have something really public...
yaiks... kulang sa pansin... hehehe
eniweis...
basta... this blog is gonna be...
well...
a reflection of my twisted reality...