waiting for you

in just a few days, our journey will start
you're coming here to take me
it's gonna be sad for my family
but i know i need to go
coz i just wanna be with you


i love you my bebe bear

Dreams Coming True

You used to be just a dream
A nameless being from the start
The faceless groom in my heart

I've waited so long for you
Looked so hard just so i could see
And then you came unexpectedly

You stretched out a hand for me
When I was wallowing in the darkness
Your presence gave me happiness

And then this love started to grow
Unbelievable but then it's true
I am bound to be with you

Now i know who you are
No longer nameless
No longer faceless

And in time, I'll be with you
To share one life to live
I love you so much, my Steve.

CHRISTMAS WITH MY BEBE

My First Christmas with my Steve and the Happiest so far...

The LOVE of my LIFE

Kitten Expressions

My dear bebe bear gave me my first kiss and it was so so so sweet... :)

And he makes my day with kisses and hugs...


And I want every moment with him to last forever...

My bebe bear, my love, my Steve,
I LOVE YOU so so so much!

Happiness!

A few months ago, i wrote about finding a man who loves me as much as i do. Well, we're living half a world apart but that didn't stop our love from growing. We continued communicating and with each day, we felt that we need to see each other and be with each other.


And so after much planning and much saving and much waiting, we finally met in the flesh. It was magical so to speak. I never really thought we'd be inseparable. But the first moment we touched, it was as if we've known each other forever.


We're officially engaged now (though in truth, we've been married since early this year through our online ceremony) and soon we would be together body and soul forever...

Back from Outerspace

It's been a long time since i last posted.

Many things had happened and there have been so many changes in my life.
I left the blog with a crazy mind filled with the horridness of a suddenly finished business.
But now i'm coming back with a better view of life and a very loving man.
:)

me

Naked!

unhappiness...

emptiness...

pain and anger...

all i needed was closure...

but came craziness!

and the door opened for closure

June 04, 2007

Y: Ei, hapi bday. =)
M: Cnu po kaw?
Y: Hulaan mo po? =)
M: Sori, nabura lahat ng mga # sa phone ko so im updating. If i knw u, hope u let me knw. tnx.
Y: O i gues khit nde nbura lhat ung numbr s cel mo, d mo p rin mlalaman kung cno ako. But i do know u. Lets leave it at that. Hapi bday ulit. =)
M: Ei, if ur sum1 i knw its d least i cud do to hav d persons name so tht i may thank him/her properly wit utmost honesty. Then again, if i had hurt u, im sori.
Y: =)
M: There is 1 person i knw who would reply the way u did. she is sum1 special to me, yet she didnt actually believe me when everything wasnt ryt. I nvr heard 4m her.
Y: So u r tnking that mayb i am her? Cno sya?
M: U tell me...
Y: Honestly... M not quite sure... S she part of d past?
M: Again, u tell me...
Y: Mmm... Y r u not sleeping yet? =)


June 05, 2007

M: Mind if i call?
Y: Y wud u need 2 do dat?
M: Jst 2 knw u again. If its ok?
Y: Dont u tnk callng me s way too xpensv 2 find out hu i am? O, mayb i botherd u 2 mch last nyt. M sori. It was a crazy tng 2 do. =)
M: Its ok.
3 missed calls
Y: Arent u supposed to b workng?
M: Ok lng... d nmn bz e.
5 missed calls
Y: Can't take a hint?
M: Don't u want to talk?
Y: No. Do u?
M: Sana, jst 4 me to thank u personally. Nagtataka lan me na...
6 missed calls
Y: Do u promis not 2 call again f i tel u hu i am?
M: Cge.
Y: Yeng
M: Ha? O ayan, at least kilala na kta. E bkt ayaw mu naman ako 2mawag.
Y: Wla lng. Told u it was a crazy tng 2 do. =)
3 missed calls
Y: Hay nku! Kulit!
M: We could talk.. Wala naman prob un eh. Tsaka iba # mu saken. Ung 0918 ang start. Nwei, i wil update na lan. If u dnt wnt pwd din naman.
Y: Haha. I told u n d mo rn malalaman n ako 2 kc m using my othr celphone. The 0918 cel s stil gud. Sowee tlga s pangungulit. Wla ko mgwa khpon e.
M: E bkt ayaw mu ko kausapin. Galit ka?
Y: Nde. Dont lyk talking s phone tlga =) anyway, admit it.. t was funny d b? Ay, i tnk nbuwisit k?
M: D naman. K lan. San ka work?
Y: s pque. Consultancy firm. Kaw, san work?
M: Meralco, anu gawa mu dyan?
Y: Nagwowork... Haha
M: I mean anu specific na gawa mu dyan?
Y: Environmental & technical consultant. D co hdles japanese mfg firms. Kaw, hulaan ko... Lynman? Hehe
M: Better, engr ako
Y: T was a joke. Mlamang lng engr k. =)
M: Tnx po.
Y: 4 greeting u a hapi bday? Welcome po.
M: D po.
Y: E pra san? 4 belivng dt u r an engr? Pwde k b nmng lynman? D nmn. =)
M: Ewan, icp mu.
Y: Gumaganti k h. =)
M: Y didnt it work out satin?
Y: D yta ako kgad nksagot dun a. So, u r thanking me kc it didnt work out?
M: D ko po sinbi yon. it is probable tht u didnt gve me a chance.. Stumped or concerned?
Y: Honestly, i dont know how 2 feel. Kc khit nmn masagot ung tnong, wud it stil mater 2 u?
M: Yes...
Y: Y? D b mas mblis iwan n lng lhat s past. Wat gud wud it do?
M: Put meaning to d past.
Y: Tntanong mo b yan s lhat?
M: Bkt lahat? Ganun b kadami?
Y: U tell me...
M: We almost made it.. I must admit, i had lapses. i nvr told u how i feel.
Y: And i thought u wer jst playing around.
M: No, i got scared bka ayaw mu
Y: And i had lots of nsecurities... I didnt tink i m gud enough 4 u.
M: Really? I felt d same way.. Knwing d kind of person u are...
Y: Huh? wat kind of person am i?
M: Strong willed...
Y: And it stopd u from saying anytng? Didnt u notice how i wud look at u as f u r d only person hu maters?
M: I knw i got scared that u myt push me away. I mean i did love u. i jst hope u felt it d way i held ur hand.
Y: I was hoping then dt d tngs we shared realy means smtng 4 u. Kya lng u wer always surounded by othr girls, d ko lam kung anong 22o.
M: No i wasnt.. again, im sori it was mostly my fault. If i had made the move, then i would hav won half of it. Remember, i almost kiss u then.
Y: I wish u jst did. Pro it s n d past now. Wla n tyong mggwa dun d b? Pro u r ryt. At least tngs r clearer now... Gave sm meaning 2 d past.
M: Cge po. Ingatz.
Y: Kaw dn po. =)

Y: Sori 2 bother u again. Pro pwde ako nmn mgtnong?
M: Cge.
Y: How long hv u waitd b4 u fnaly gv up on a posible "us"?
M: Matagal, kaht nung college pa i was stil hoping we could be together. U kinda repelled me.
Y: I wntd 2 4get u kc i was afraid u didnt feel d same.
M: Gud nyt.
Y: Nyt. =)